DAMN IT!!! y wil i cry 4 u?

So hate 2day nehx!!!
y wil i cry cuz of THEM???
i felt so s2p leh!
y wan like diz treat me? T_T
im not ur fren ma?
how could u do this 2 me?
i PROMISE myself not 2 cry 4 u all le!
so UNWORTHY my tears drop like nobody business! >.<
DAM!
say only is best fren.......
but if best fren wil betray me de meh???
if best fren wil leave me alone de meh??
if best fren wil cuz of so smal de thing angry me meh?
if like this call best fren...
then sry lo
i couldnt b ur best fren~
mayb v r from different world different chanel.....
coulnot b 2gether all we 2gther this decision was wrong~
wateva la....
FINALLY i know wat kind of ppl u r~
im THANK GOD 4 giving me noe u all true atitude so early~
im so disaponted 2 wat u did 2 me! T_T
SO HATE 2DAY!!! I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!
i told myself from 2day onwards i wan 2 b a STRONG GAL!!!
a gal wont cry so easyly
a gal wont let u all bully
a gal can leave indepentaly without all ur HELP!!!
i tot when love life gone... frenz wil support me
but seems i guess wrg~
finally i know only only can last 4ever is juz FAMILY!~
but sadly... i dun even hav a HAPPY FAMILY!~
god..... y wan like this treat me?
im juz a little gal who was too weak 2 confront~
i juz wish 2 hav my family 2gether...
i was being pray for u so much but u break my heart...
i wish 4 a nice loving bf but instead i dont found 1~
then after i hav put all my wish down...
u gv me hope tat i stil got frenz 2 hold
but in the end u break my heart once more...
they betray me deeply n hurtly~
wat u wan from me summore?
im so tired out of wishing n hoping~
if i could i wish i could end up evevrything!!
i wana 2 gv up!!!
im too tired 2 confront agn....
i gv up!!!
i gv up!!! T_T