isnt me a stupid brainless gurl?

till now.. i tot have forgotten everything~
but isnt.. im just pretending.
pretending that i have forget
im not seriously~
till now i saw his picture.. i wanted cry it agn...
wayne.. stop askin me of him
i know you care and worry for me
and i tot im goanna be okay..
but its seems like time isnt allow me
and my tears is out of my control
felt so useless..
quite a months i still couldnt forget him
issit this means im truly in love with him dy?
oh shit! i really it hate those feeling... >.<

why must you be so cruel?
how can you just leave me like that?
why? why must you?
i have promise not to believe you anymore...
NO! not anymore
im tot i could be strong... but so far all is just pretending
hate to act in front... its isnt me...
if you dont love me why must you make it like its coming true?
why must you make it everything so real
make me happie full with touching and then u damage all over without any sympathy
love is so fragile.. so am i....
and you know... you know i need stability..
if cant you make it why must you promise?
stop fooling in front of me
i really need time to recover...

wayne said... there's a guy out there who will be my pwince...
and who is goanna? who goanna lead me out from those darkness?
i need guy.. someone who can push those pain of mine away
someone who can make me forget of him...
maybe i still need to wait
i dont know when...

nelson... i wish you where there when im sad..
cause no one knows this more then you
im holding my phn to call you up...
but i know you were busying with your training...
i dont want to fan you..
and nowadays... you didnt talk like u usual did
what happen? i dont know
hope you will tell me cause that you said that we r bff ^^

but actually call fren also no use...
its all my problem
i sholud face it myself...
but sometimes i couldnt..
i really cant!
why must i face everything all alone??
im just an ordinary gurl who wish to being love only ma
y is it so hard??