bad sad day

today is so speechless.

so bored.

so unbelievable.

so down.

so unexpected

so excited yet so complicated.
happy or down?

im confused.

everything happen so sudden.

only i realised,

that i couldnt forget the past.

he haunts my night

when i saw him again....

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today i woke up bout 11 ++

this year first time so late wake up ==

i think?

yesterday chat with Z.E till late wee xD

so today wake up late also

as i very lazy la somemore finish exam adiie

should time for LAZY ^^

then, dixon phoned.

ask me out to 1u.

i agree and then i bathe quickly.

before when in to batheroom

someone called me outside my house.

its him.

pet pet hao.

hey, brother..

miss you my dear xD

im glad you remember me.

but i know you will said im the one who forgotten you

but who care's la..

=P

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he ask me out for lunch.

and he said he will fetch me to 1u

so i decided to cancel to go dpc find swee ee them.

so then they go 1u themselves.

after that,

take a quick bathe and he came.[driver]

lol.

then he ask me to call jane to go out to eat together.

and for sure im going to be the one who go and 'tham' her mum

let her come out ==

seems so evil

like want kidnap her child LOL

i say dao sure her mum agree with me xD

wohooooo

then poh came. and we got in the car

and when to manjalara to eat

sorry let you all wait..

my speed cannot increase anymore.

so be patient and wait for me to finish my food =X

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then we decided to when 1u

and pet pet hao has canceled his class

so i told dixon im not joining them

but he said he already bought the ticket for me

night at the musuem 2 @@

if i havent watch i surely join you guys.

sorry wee

i know its my fault my wrong

dont angry lar.

im sincerely, wanted to apologise.

and i hope you forgive

hope you guys have fun.

we reach and find parking bout more than half hour i guess zzz

damn lot human and crowded ==

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went to gsc.

lot people queueing to buy ticket.

so we went to tgv

end up the same.

when to have ice cream at mcd

and walk around and hang around

without any direction and aim

first time go out till so sein ==

haih...

maybe no kj here.

he is the humour of our group

and no ppl zat me xD

im awaiting you to come back from the 'jail' LOL

6/6/09

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went home since very tired.

but jane said wanted to watch movie

and then we when to jusco.

but then i damn poor so then i told her i wanted to go pm tonight

and so we cancel and went to jane house.

haha thought wanted to play mah jong

but i dont know what the hack they write @@

so then pet pet hao said wanted to go home

he fetch poh back to aman puri

and then go and find babe kok lim

but he wasnt free to choi us

so when home with a sad face haha

then on the journey back home.

he said he bout last time

when we were so naughty used to go out with car without license.

and hang around with car till morning

its the best day i ever had

i really apreciate and cherish a good memory

thanks.

[i miss frisbee wee, poh said wanted to buy.]

i miss it.

seriously, very long didnt play already.

*i miss kw

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then i told pet pet hao to refill the petrol

as he used quite an amount

so then we when to shell

and suddenly.
jh* called.

before that N* called me to go 1u

but that time i was at poh house ==

he ask to go 1u and he said he bought my ticket too

what the.... >.<

back to the point,

i cant hear clearly what he said

as i think he there no line gua.

but i knew he said he saw me.

actually i answer it in my heart.

'i already knew, cause i saw you with my eyes.

although you were not with other girls or whatever

but in my heart deeply i truly know

i still forget him

its so hard.

maybe those memory he gave me will remain for me forever'

i hate that i have ever been with you before.

im regret.

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why must you still treat me like that

[according to wait N* told me when he called]

why must you still remind me of you?

why must you treat me so cruel without any sympathy

jh* i might not know you well.

but i understand what you wanna do.

i wont let you hurt N* nor myself

im trying hard to protect everything.

my surrounding.

please i beg you.

please let go of me.

you got your own life...

why must you interupt me?

cant you just leave me all myself

since you meant to say GOODBYE?

what the hack you want from me?

tell me................!!

GOH JIAN HAO!!

can you here me >.<

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seems a moody day to me.

since i saw him

i need sometime.

to remain everything the same.

im not a strong girl

i need someone to help

please.

let me go.

let me forget the past

and start my new life

=THE END=

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Z.E

sorry, i dont meant to do so.

i still need time

its unfair

i knew it.

im speecless

i couldnt say anything accept a word of apology

i hope you understand.

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tomorow,

pet pet hao fetch me to midvalley

to interview at PDI for 2 weeks holiday

going to start work life again ^^

hope thats more better then NOIR wee

hope there the people is much more friendly

pray for my interview tomorow

*go ikano with kok lim yey

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i might not get to forget you.

but i will try my best.