♥ heart broken

YOU MADE MY DREAM COME TRUE...♥

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this post is suppose to be on 25 august

it should be a busy day.

as i have training,

physics class,

kasturi tuition,

cambridge course.

but i just went for cambrigde one.

cant wake up lar in the morning.

freaking lazziiee...

so i decided just skip my class and training.

in the afternoon,

decided to skip maths too...

as its holiday

i want to enjoy it =)

find for so many ppl

but just few replied.

but the one who went out with me was fan shu*

LOL

went to have pao bing.

and watch alien in the attic

haha he bought me sushi for dinner wee..

dunno why suddenlt so caring pulak zzz

went home,

rush for dinner prepare everything for tuition.

bus GONE.

have to walk there

DAMN FAR >.<

late for class zzz

change lecturer already.

dont really like the way he teach

i miss the old one (=

waited for dad to fetch.

but he didnt no back ss

so uncle said he is on the way back from fetching

nanny from puchong

waited..

and aunt say she fetch

if it seems a burden to you.

you dont need to do so lor!!

i have born with legs

and can walk myself!

i told that i walk home

but he jsut say WAIT

damn you lar..

i know this will happen.

went home,

i have just cried.

no one try to understand me.

all they do is just scold and scold.

do i really seem to be that strong?

they have never try to care about me,

they didnt not ask me

everything about me

sometimes,

when i saw others

they talk with their family members just like friend

with no secret

i have try to be strong.

dont care too much

study hard

and to have a better future

sometimes im too tired

to solve and walk thru everything my own.

i wish there's someone i could rely on

but ever since..

i know all i could do is to be INDEPENDENT!

maybe what the master said that day was true.

they have never know

why my attitude have change.

because they do not CARE.

and it hurts me is.

the day i fall sick.

i have trying to walk down stairs with all the strength i have

and told them i was sick

everybody were busying.

the view of the living were stil fresh on my mind!

aunt was busying teaching his son.

grandma keep talking to uncle

and i have try to loud out my voice

and say 'IM SICK'

no one care's..

and when i shout..

only they look at me

with the innocent face.!

as im writing this my tears was rolling....

i just wish to grown up faster.

i want to leave this heartless place.

i dont want to get HURT anymore.

if i have wish...

i just want to be in a normal family..

materials couldnt replace the love of parents, dad.

i know you try to fulfill what i have ask.

but doesnt its cruel...

you just care of your family now.

but not me

P/S: please think carefully before you want to have a baby

its CRUEL when you born it

if you dont care.

you could have change of heart

if you would only change your mind

instead of slamming down a phone

girl of the hundredth time

i got your number on my wall

but i ain't goanna make that call

when devided we stand

baby united we fall

Song: When Love & Hate Collide

Artist: Def Leppard