Wish you were there.

Today, i did what i promise you. I went to tuition ler. four subjects indeed. You know... Im a stubborn girl. I wont usually change what i usually used to do. And you're the one. Arww... I admit the way today we talk is my fault. perhaps. But cant just forgive once..? You always put all your time on basketball.. But I weren't that greedy. I'm just thirst of your message wad. A text need how long for you to write? Im giving myself reason and reason. I know basketball mean alot to you. Not until that stage right? Im human lor.. I have feelings too.

I waited and waited... my inbox was still empty. Finally, I couldnt stand those time without you. I texted you. And i turn off my phone. Do you know why? I afraid that you might still angry me. Werent want to reply or even call me. So to make myself from thinking other stuff. Switch off is the best way so i would not know the answer. At least for this moment, i wont feel sad? I wanted to tell you actually that tomorow im going for the urine test. Truthfully, im fear for that for sure. I wish to tell you that moment. But, you're so into your basketball. Started feeling I even worse then a basketball game. You made me drop my tears again..

Sometimes i asked myself... is this what a relation is? I thought it brings happiness. why the other way round? other from i have expected? hmm... I wish to tell it to you, but you know i hard to express myself in front of you especially. I know im useless. cause CRY is the only thing i did.

The day you met me, eventhough time is short. That an hour is enough to make my day sleepless. and brighten up my monday with my smiley face. You're controlling my emotions. I cant make myself thinking postive nowadays.

Wish me nothing from the urine test. I dont want to get sick (: